11 months or Coping Mechanisms

I logged into our family site to post this.  The first thing I noticed was I had posted so little last year.   (And then when I went back and looked at what I had written, some entries hadn’t even been finished … the one about John’s funeral just stops abruptly…) The control freak in…

Step 1: Gather Kindling (7 years ago)

January 23, 2010 “…well they won’t come out here.” I was  dissapointed. I was shooting my fifth wedding as the owner/proprietor of my new business “Kitty Sanchez Photography”.  It was an AWESOME wedding- but it was also the first BIG wedding that I had booked since my very first wedding (which was a whole ‘nother…

11.11 Six Months Gone

It’s been six months since I lost John.  All day I had so many thoughts racing through my head, and like so many times since that day, I’ve felt this desperate need to try to write down what I’m thinking or what’s going on.  But it’s all too much.  Even if I can find a…

A sad and beautiful day. I wish it never happened…

On the day John died, we had to select a funeral home.  Which made me confront the fact that there would have to be a funeral. My mother-in-law Leslie asked what church I had in mind for the service.  And my mind swam dizzy with the idea that we were talking about my John’s FUNERAL….

Isabella’s 9th Birthday Party: “Alvin and the Chipmunks Pool Party”

Last week, Isabella turned nine and our family passed another milestone without John. Birthdays are a BIG DEAL to Isabella.  I do not exaggerate when I say that she began talking about her 9th birthday party plans starting on the drive home from her 8th birthday party.  REQUIREMENTS:  Pool party at Nana’s (my mom), Alvin…

June 24

I have been thinking about this day all week.  I have been thinking about this day since the day I lost John.  This morning I woke up at 4:30 am already crying. It’s June 24th – the anniversary of our civil marriage service when we officially became a family.  5 years ago today. I love…